Our Next Six Months

Saturday update for 15 August 2020.

Cannon Hinnant

A five-year-old boy, riding his bike in front of his house is the definition of innocence. Throughout history, almost all cultures have recognized this. The media may portray this jut as a boy fatally shot.


But it is much more than that. We could talk about how different the outcry and reaction would be if this were a black child, shot at close range in the head by a white neighbor. That would be playing into the same racialist narrative that infects so much of the dialogue today.

Cannon was an innocent, in the eyes of God his life mattered and he was innocent of all sin. We do not know what he would have grown up to be. He may have become a drug-addicted, lifetime criminal, a man that abused women, abandoned his children, and might someday die on a street after committing more crimes and struggling with police.

He may have become a saint, or he may have just become an ordinary imperfect man like the rest of us. But he was innocent and his life mattered.

Some will argue that perhaps Darius Sessoms, the man that shot Cannon in the head from close range, was an anomaly, that this is not indicative of the world. That we cannot place blame on an entire class of people because of his actions. I agree with that. We cannot condemn all 25-year-old black men as child murderers. It would be insane to classify an entire class of people as evil!

Some of the same people that would make that argument support groups that want to vilify and attack the police, all of them, as one large homogenous group of evil-doers. Some still would tell us that all white people enjoy white privilege and play a part in 'systemic racism'.  Because they have read, sat in a lecture, or saw some videos on the subject, they might even place me in a category of deniers because I do not even recognize my own 'white fragility'.

There is some hard truth that we need to come to terms with.

All of this hatred and racism that has spread like a real pandemic since George Floyd died on a street (before then really, perhaps back to Michael Brown robbing a store and wrestling for a police officers gun) played a significant role in the death of Cannon Hinnant. I can hear all of the counter-arguments, but on a basic, foundational level, that is absolutely true.

We can say that we 'love' people and want to see justice. But a parent that loves their child does not allow them to do absurd or dangerous things just because the child is upset. A friend does not stand idly by and supports a friend doing immoral things just because their friend feels wronged. Real love comes with other attributes. Real love looks at the total cost and the total benefit of a thing and measures it all against a backdrop of other principles. Real love is not blind support of anything that makes someone appear to feel better.

From the first day that churches, pastors and people that believe they operate from a position of goodwill began posting memes, making arguments, endeavoring to convince others and signaling their support for BLM and the protests (often ignoring the hateful words and violence) I have repeated over and over - this is all wrong.

Black Lives Matter as a concept is correct because all lives matter and we should seek justice. BLM as an organization is horrible. It is impossible to separate the broad concept from the organization and the hate and violence it engenders. People of goodwill and moral principles should have avoided this from the beginning.

There have been more murders beyond Cannon; many more. Some media outlets claim that 'crime has not increased', in an effort to gaslight those that see all of this in its true nature. Many are deceived by such claims, no matter how easily debunked they are.

BLM and the protests, burning, violence, riots, and mayhem have unleashed a general spirit of violence and lawlessness. This has manifested most in the cities and communities with a predominately black population. Those that support BLM had in effect subjected to many black Americans to more poverty, violence, and suffering.

This all has been and is immoral. It is wrong. Those that supported it from a position of  "goodwill" of a concept of Biblical Love that excluded all the other principles in the Bible have been and are wrong.

If this applies to you, you need to repent of your sin and search your soul to figure out what in your life made you so susceptible to a lie of the world.

Here is some truth for you.


I responded to a local news article the other day that claimed a minor public figure was among other things a racist. I commented that it was a terrible article and poor journalism because they made no effort to actually support the claim that the person in question was a racist, it was just stated as fact, they had said racist things.

One of the young reporters replied to me with an article from Politico. Politico stated they had 'hundreds of hours' of video with the individual making racist statements and provided a video as an example. In the provided video there were heterodox statements, things contrary to the established narrative but nothing racist.

I replied that the delivery was 'plain', but the points were no different that things Dr. Thomas Sowell has said for years. With that, the conversation turned. I too must be a racist, or a troll, or a parody account.

It is very dangerous that ideas are so easily tossed aside and those that question anything of the popular narrative are branded with a label, a scarlet letter, and dismissed.  These are troubling developments. This is not the same a labeling someone a 'radical progressive', 'liberal', 'right-winger', etc.   This is essentially the same as calling someone a pedophile, a social pariah. (It may, in fact, be worse, there are some that now claim out loud that pedophilia is a sexual orientation)

One of the most profound statements from the Granada TV documentary on the Spanish Civil War (I highly recommend it) was, 'when each side could no longer discuss ideas, violence was inevitable'.

If most of the institutions of society (most of the media, many churches, most of the educational establishment), and many of the unthinking masses are willing to carelessly label others with stigmatic labels that equals their voice and ideas unworthy of being heard - how do you believe this all turns out?

We need to return to civil discussion and an honest usage of the English language. Racism and racist language exists on both sides of the conversation today, but on the extremes. We need to apply the term precisely, otherwise real violence awaits us all.


  • Trump claims that mail-in voting will be an open opportunity for voter fraud.
  • Much of the media repeatedly conflates 'mail-in' voting (mass mailing out ballots) with absentee voting (registered voters actively requesting a ballot) in an effort to dismiss Trump's claim.
  • Many on the left claim without funding the USPS cannot handle mail-in voting and predict chaos.
  • Several news articles and snippets of remarks by Democratic leaders predict chaos and even hint they believe Trump will not concede.
  • The NYT reported an exercise during the Obama era where a sitting president refused to concede and a constitutional crisis ensued.
  • Marco Rubio tells us to expect election chaos.

It seems both the Democrats and Republicans completely agree. Are they foreshadowing what is to come? Is this all a singular plan, are they really working together, some claim that? Is it perhaps that both sides see the growing divide and understand what this means (I wrote that in 2018)? Are they perhaps just building a narrative for a future claim to legitimacy/illegitimacy? We cannot know. But it seems they agree that real chaos is coming. Nothing good comes from such chaos.

A New Civil War, an aggregator of news and opinion from both sides is a good place to keep up with opinions across the spectrum. When I wrote America’s Great Cultural and Political Divide in 2018 many mainstream articles on the subject at the same time dismissed the idea as preposterous, no longer is that the story.

You would be wise to get yourself and your family ready - and repent of your sins of omission and commission that helped in some way move us to this point.


Interference by Russia, China and others is real. Some of it is easy to detect, while other efforts are more subtle and perhaps more effective. Each side has their prefered enemy, may repeat the narratives, carelessly. We should be wise enough to see all of this for what it is, yet most do not.

The leaked release of police bodycam footage was something of a watershed moment for many. We now know why it was not released, or we can reasonably assume. It paints a very different picture than what was available only on the other angles of Floyd's arrest. I noticed thousands of people, folks that had argued passionately one way prior to the release of this evidence change their outlook. Some began to question why any of the subsequent violence occurred. Others pivoted away from ever mentioning Floyd and making all of this about something bigger (that is rather dishonest).

What is clear, is that none of these events, Micheal Brown, Floyd, and many others that have caused so much chaos were ever what they were portrayed as originally, and many people have come to see that as a reality now. The cases remain complex, but they are not clear-cut cases of racist cops gone wild, murdering innocent people. Honest people, folks of goodwill, willing to look at facts now know this.

ANTIFA and BLM have credibility and the narrative problem now. People wonder if burning, beating, violence, and mayhem were justified.

I will be the first 'not shocked' person when we see some major incident, perhaps even a mass killing, all made to look like (or at least reported as ) a white racist attack. The Boogaloo Bois are real, they are ready for the revolution, marching, and supporting ANTIFA and BLM and they already look like "white supremacists" - they are the perfect candidates to conduct such an operation.


I am not even convinced at this point the Democrats are running a serious campaign to win. If I were Joe Biden, I would keep my head down and watch those around me. Nothing would spell 'sympathy vote' more than a candidate being killed "by extremest on the other side". History is filled with that sort of stuff, 2020 is that odd.

Or, as some claim - is Trump just part of it all? He is getting things done the Democrats want that they could never do without many on the right taking to the streets. Think about it...I do not know.


China has checked off every action I predicted on 7 June, (those and more; I was probably wrong on the election but spot-on in terms of China and Belarus)

In the midst of election chaos, between November and January (probably late December, early January) I think it is highly likely that China will move decisively and quickly to take control of Taiwan. There is a scenario, that smart strategic planners have worked out, whereby China can accomplish just that in less than a week. It only requires a delayed and confused response from the US.

Such a move, successfully executed with minimal fighting and Taiwain capitulating early because of a delayed US response would fundamentally alter the East Asian balance of power.

Millions more will soon be subjected to the boot-heel of a genocidal regime because we in the US are too busy being absurd.


Finally - the entire alignment of many ancillary nations hangs in the balance right now. The proxy war Greece and Turkey have fought in Libya is more than two sides trying to fix something the US and NATO foolishly broke. The peace arrangement between Israel and the UAE has a significant meaning.

Will the Eastern Med/Middle-east, Caucus now realign based upon a new and more natural coalition or will unrelated wars prevail. Will all of this result in a comprehensive peace arrangement? (of later chapter Biblical proportions...)

All are possible. If the peace, initiative expands to the Balkans (Kosovo and Serbia) then Greece, Turkey, and resolves Syria and the Caucus (all interconnected) I will really be convinced we are in the end-times! If is is a geopolitical realignment, I will not b shocked.

I am inclined to think that spheres will simply realign. Russia has a common interest with many that we have a common interest with. We may come to view them differently in a new arrangement. Turkey and Pakistan and Qatar may be out, India in. Israel might be welcomed openly into a coalition with Saudia Arabia, UAE, and Syria. We may come to see Syria as a front in the battle against not ISIS but Iranian/Turkish and Chinese interest. The world could realign over this into the US versus China spheres based upon natural and historical affinities/animosities and the prevailing strategic goals of the primaries.

Saturday Update 8/8/20

Saturday Update

I have pulled back from posting on social media a lot, and from FB almost entirely. There are those that see that the world has changed and others that need time, and others still that will never see. The time and energy spent there is much better spent on other pursuits. I have very little energy to write in a deliberate or serious way. As I have said, I wrote things before that were geared toward explaining and maybe stopping what is occurring. Those sorts of high-minded articles, with footnotes, and detailed arguments about history and philosophy and geopolitics are of very little use now, we are in what we are in. However, I still feel the itch to put some thought to paper, if for no one else than myself. Thus, here is the first installment of my Saturday update. Hopefully, a regular activity that summarizes some of the events of the week.

It is perhaps odd to begin these updates on 8/8/20. Did you know that if the sun were to explode it would take 8 minutes and 20 seconds for us to know that our material existence was over? Imagine all that would occur in those few moments. Some people would say unkind words to another, some would commit a great sin, others may show kindness and most would pass the time mindlessly looking at their phone. None would know that everything had already fundamentally and permanently changed.  I believe we live in just such a moment. Most do not realize what has happened and what comes next.

I published the above on 15 April.  In that video, I suggested planting a backyard garden this year. I suggested then that all the virus talk was going to make people afraid and when people are afraid they do dangerous and violent things.

If you took my advice and planted a garden, I suspect you learned a few things. I did.

I learned I need a few more items. I need to build some raised beds. My little dog will actually dig potatoes out of the ground and eat them and more. If you took my advice and used this year as an opportunity to learn and get better, your bounty will be much better next year. As the fall and winter comes, we have an opportunity to work in better weather to get ready for a better effort next year.

You can still get non-hybrid seeds - Do it!


  • I saw a headline the other day stating "you are unlikely to get the virus on a commercial airplane". I wonder what scientific study they are referencing for that claim. This is such an 'odd' virus don't you think? You don't get it sitting beside a stranger in an aluminum tube for hours but it is dangerous to sing. I give up trying to weed through the absurdity.
  • CNN published an article that claims China and Iran want Biden to win and Russia wants Trump to win in November. This proves even a broken clock is right twice a day. Of course, these countries have a preference. But, I have pointed out before, China is much more dangerous.
  • We may see a couple of pastors arrested in California tomorrow. Almost all of 'Christianity' has abandoned and shammed these men for acting on their convictions. I have grown tired of the discussion over the foundational matter of religious freedom at stake (our opinions of what they SHOULD do matter a lot less than what the government is telling them they MUST do).
  • The "Q" world seems to be on edge right now, awaiting the big blackout (I think they mean that metaphorically). Stay away from those people, they are filled with New Age symbolism. On a foundational level, some deep in this group are as dangerous as ANTIFA.
  • It seems the Democrats are on the verge of a great pivot, they are about to call for schools to reopen. The media will follow and the pod people will fall in line.
  • The violence in the Pacific Northwest continues, it has come to residential neighborhoods now with threats and intimidation. I wonder if the 'big pivot' will include coaxing these groups to tone it down for a bit. Polling seems to be trending against the democrats and their support of these activities. If they can turn it off, be clear on their ability to turn it all back on as desired.
  • Lots of chatter in the OSINT world about all the fires and explosions across the Middle-East the past week. The Beruit thing has many bizarre theories attached to it, but at the core, it is odd the scale of the explosion. It does not match "fireworks".


Otherwise, I have been "doing work'. Some of the personal things I mentioned before, our little business is chugging along, I have another contract lined up in the near term. I also finished one of my body armor projects. I own some rifle grade plates and some AR500 soft plates but a bit ago I took to experimenting with homemade inserts - for reasons, fun mostly. I built a lighter, concealable kit, for some future world where crime is more prevalent but not so bad that one can comfortably wear a plate carrier out shopping. I am not one of those 'go to guns first guys', none of that will save us. I am also not a meek fool. These have been fun projects and they may have some utility someday.

Why not just buy one of the Safelite concealable vests?  I weighed the cost versus benefits of that purchase and decided to order something else instead...

Y'all be good. Get to work! Be smart, don't be a pod person or a fool.

Useful Items You Probably Haven’t Thought About


I suspect a lot of the 'prepper' guys are unhappy right now, after all this is not how things were supposed to play out. They were ready for the big one, not the 'big slow slide' into economic troubles and anarcho-tyranny. Perhaps all of their efforts are not wasted, but having a ranch, a bunker, enough ammo to supply a battalion and all that will not ultimately make their lives much better - only better by degrees. Their efforts may in fact make them a target in the coming months and years.

That said, there are a lot of things regular folks ought to be doing to prepare for a paradigm shift. Listed below are just some of those items you may not have considered.

There are a lot of reasons why these items could become hard/impossible to get or very expensive. Many come from China.  I own and use all of these items. They are inexpensive and work.

Security Door Lock Brackets Fits 2x4 Boards 1 1/8" Wide. You cannot defend your home from a determined or sustained threat. If a group wants in and is motivated, they will eventually get in. YOU CAN slow down an individual or small group. I own a set of these for all exterior doors and for two interior doors that I have reinforced. If and when crime rates surge here and the wife says that I can 'ugly up' the house, these are easy and fast to install. Just keep your power drill charged and handy and precut the lumber and store it away. 

It is just really smart to carry a small bag. Nothing out of the ordinary, not a 'tacticool' bag that screams look at me. Just a small bag with a few items. Essential items include things that can save a the life of you are someone that would otherize bleed-out in minutes. I really like the Waterfly Sling Backpack Sling Bag. I do not wear it around (but always place it in the car, even on short trips), I would and do wear it when I walk around a city. I always carry a tourniquet, quick-clot, and a kit to treat a sucking chest wound

In addition to that, a can of water, usually two extra magazines and sundries. Not a lot, not heavy, not obvious.

These go in the sling bag. Use them as a pressure bandage OR, cover your face and look like a protestor to blend in if you get stuck someplace you ought not be!

These stay in the bag also. These add a small degree of additional ballistic protection and cover the sides very well. They fit over prescription glasses and provide a broad spectrum defense against lasers (a current threat TTP).

The two little radios above are the 'cheapest' little receivers I own - but they work. Tecsun is Chinese, but they make good and inexpensive radios. If there is ever a temporary period where you need to get information via world-band and do not want to spend a lot of money, either of these is good.

This is a really good umbrella, and a gentleman should carry an umbrella. But, this is also a weapon. Not the sword cane sort of thing, it is a robust striking and blunting weapon, it is designed as such.


The items above provide power for critical devices in a pinch. The portable power station is the heart of it all. You can recharge it from 12v, wall outlet, alligator clips direct to the battery, hand-turbine, or solar panel. Included above is the small solar panel (which can charge this or trickle charge car batteries and other items) and other items required to make this all work. The invertor is just an extra piece of nice to have stuff.

I see many folks online laughing at ANTIFA guys for wearing Airsoft carriers. Here is the deal, you can purchase soft Level III inserts for this and it works, those inserts are not heavy. If you were going to wear rifle level plate long term this may not hold up - but you are not going to wear this much.  I have these in a case in the back of the vehicle, if we were traveling and things got really weird, we would consider wearing them.

I purchased the AR500 soft inserts back before the price of them skyrocketed. If you cannot see spending the money - ask me, I can show you how to make 14 layer denim polyurethane infused inserts that will (should/may, I ain't guaranteeing stuff that will get me sued) stop up to .40.

I own a robust carrier with rifle level protection, but who has everything they need everywhere they are. Beyond my his and hers set I keep in the car, I keep another one of these cheaper puppies with level III soft inserts downstairs in the office. One never knows when trouble might find them.

If I have Insulted You, I Apologize

I feel convicted to apologize. I will do it here generally and personally to some folks as I see you. I have become increasingly polemic in my words and passionate in my tone throughout 2020. At times I have engaged in pointless debate when it was clear it was impossible to move the other party – that was my pride. I have said things that could be taken as insulting.

I do not and cannot recant my conclusions. I cannot apologize for expressing those conclusions. It seemed that a more milquetoast approach would have had zero chance of success. Somehow, my figuratively screaming like a wild man in the desert did have a positive effect on a hand-full of people.

However, if my imperfect ability to completely express my thoughts in ways that are clear and concise and leaves no room for misinterpretation at times left anyone to feel attacked or insulted personally – I sincerely apologize. I have called out publicly specific actions that some of you participate in or ideas and concepts you still hold to that I perceive as dangerous. I do not want it to appear that you alone, or those like you are solely to blame for the world. We all have a role.

I promise you, that if I have shown any indignation toward anything you have done – the anger I feel toward myself for missed opportunities and things I could have done or said long before now is tremendous. I feel much sadness and anger over what I should or could have done to make a difference. Perhaps some of that has come out as I have pointed out things you might now do better. I apologize for that.

I apologize for having so little patience this year.

I began writing and openly speaking about what the trends and indicators predicted for us soon after I retired from the Army in 2018, once I was free. Some of you I spoke to in the kinder, gentler, and ‘academic’ way long before all the world turned upside down. It has been my failing that once those trends and indicators began to manifest into observable events in January that I was less patient. I realize most people simply were not in a place two years ago where anything I say now about the world could have been processed. The dark reality of some things in our world is very hard to swallow. I should have been more patient and kind this year to folks that are just beginning the movie I have seen a dozen times.

To the three preachers (one UMC, one Presbyterian, one Baptist), I have probably insulted or angered this year – folks that either are, used to be or almost were my friends. Yes, fellows, I was especially hard on you. I have no idea if my method was right or wrong. I got the attention of two of you in a way I do not think a more polite conversation would have. There are no perfect churches and one of you says, true. But some of the things we are doing in our imperfect churches is simply wrong and adds to the problems we have. I would not have said words that potentially angered you, I admit I did that, if I did not love you. I may be all wrong in my method, pray for me, it was personal only insofar as I think you can do better, folks look up to you, you lead a church, the times demand it.

I do not apologize to other ‘pastors’ I have offended. Can not, will not. Some of y’all will help lead millions into destruction and servitude. My rebuke stands and I stand by it.

To regular folks I know that are inclined to roll your eyes and snicker at most things serious. I apologize for not being able to communicate with you better. The world has changed fundamentally and you need to change too. I failed with most of you and it was likely all related to my delivery and approach.

I apologize for my lack of clarity at times. To fix that now.

  • The only conspiracy I know for certain exists is Evil. Evil may cause the minds of men to cooperate, and probably does. However, as long as Evil walks and has a personality to represent it, grand conspiracies do not have to exist (they could but do not need to).
  • Not a small portion of what we see in the world (news, etc.) looks a lot like the results of techniques used to control a population. I get that sounds like something off a crazy website but propaganda, information operations and PSYOPS are real and much of this looks just like that.  
  • Crazy websites, “Q”, Qanon, Pizza Gate, Wayfair gate etc. are all deceptions that have enough truth in them to make some believe and are crazy enough to make skeptics laugh. The degree, complexity, and scope of these deceptions and hoaxes are telling. If I have ever led you to believe I subscribe to these sorts of things, I am sorry – these are all pieces in a giant puzzle of deception and control.
  • Truth – Truth is the target of the enemy, Satan. The global conspiracy of Evil, which may or may not comprise anything more than the mind of Satan and his minions, is focused on destroying truth. It is as simple as that. That is what I believe, I filter everything else through that. This is why I have railed against small variances in understanding truth in the Church or from preachers.
  • As such – almost everything we see now is a deception. The news from both sides, politics, science now also. Almost nothing we see is what it seems entirely, everything comes from an agenda. This is directly related to an all-out assault on Truth. This is evil at work. Great deceptions will increase exponentially now I believe.
  • History – we can all read history, but we probably all come away with one of two perspectives. Either you see history as the march of progress or you see it as the march of decadence and decay. I am in the latter camp. I will probably always fundamentally disagree with anyone that holds the former view. I always view current and future events through the lens of how I view history.

I cannot apologize for my certitude. As I become further entrenched in Reformed Theology I become a caricature of Charles II’s statement that ‘Presbyterianism is no religion for a gentleman.’ You may disagree with my conclusions but my epistemology is based upon a tried and true tradition, my acceptance of a certain histological school, and my personal knowledge and experience with some of the darker arts of geopolitics.

Thank God I have made the acquaintance of preachers, academics, and thinkers that share my views. I fear that based upon some of the push back I have received from my ideas from those I know it is possible I could have been gaslighted into doubt.

I say all of that, partly in explanation and partly for clarity to say – nothing I have said was personal. I got my dander up in righteous indignation. I apologize for the times that was hurtful or infuriating to some. I did not intend it from a bad place.

We cannot change the world or even stop what is about to happen. We can stop aiding and abetting the destruction, we can move to the right side of truth. We can do what is moral and right to help our little communities, families, and flocks to better weather this. That was always my intention. It is time for preparation and Retrenchment.

In future, if I post things on Facebook, I will be less polemic. If you took the time to read this then you will know why I say what I say.  I am fixed and #based now, I do not think I can be moved from the primary worldview I now hold, so there is likely no reason to try. I am always happy to discuss why I interpret a specific event a certain way or to clarify why I stated (or misstated) something. The time for convincing and arguing, for me at least, has passed.

Finally, some of you I spoke truths to years ago about how actions and lack of actions would adversely affect people that I love. I apologize if I did not do enough then to help you correct yourself, I own my portion of that. I will work on my anger at you for the damage your actions have wrought. To those who share a common interest of loved ones, that I have recently reached out to and shared facts and truths that have failed to listen – I will be patient.  It is time for you to realize the greatest act of love is not tacit support but rather speaking hard truth in confusing times.

See the things I am not sorry for.

My Life in Zac Brown Songs

Zac Brown has a way with lyrics and I suppose they are successful because so many identify with their words. It often seemed in my life they were writing songs to go along with my life. Presented in reverse chronological order as it was my bit of life here. (with two extra songs added in).

  1. My Old Man – he is me, I am him. He showed me everything I needed to know. he was a man.

2. When I was younger, I was foolish, selfish and unfair.

3. “We are born in hospitals to moms and dads who work and pray, the chosen few get shipped away to reap the tax that must be paid”

4. I remember the day it all clicked for me that she had been gone for years and there was no saving her.

5. Better men than me met this fate, it was not my time.

6. Then this happen, with a different ending (see #4 above).

7. There were sad, hard times and it almost killed me.

8. At one point Bart Crow provided my get up and live theme song – I played it on repeat out in Texas. It was cathartic.

9. I ended up literally driving Highway 20, for a while every weekend, heading east to see the two people I loved more than anything.

10. And then I met Bri, and well…

11. Loving her is so very easy.

12. Last year this one almost came true – shotgun and all.

13. And it goes full-circle from the first song in this list to my most important purpose in life.

Remembering my Father

As we approach Father’s Day in 2020, I, upon reflection, have come to a disturbing conclusion. I am happy that my earthly father has passed away and passed on. That is a profound realization, it is a complex statement. Taken out of context it sounds vulgar. It is not that I did not love my father, I did. It is not that I do not miss him, I very often do. I say the above for the singular reason that I know it was a far better thing for him to pass from this world rather than live to see the world turned upside down and people that ought to be wise enough to know better cheering it on and aiding in its destruction. He did not deserve to live to this day to observe what has become of us. The West is lost.

My father was a hard man, jovial socially but often without a lot of words privately. He spent much less time trying to explain what he saw and thought than I do and relied upon stern statements, pointed questions, and sometimes just walking away to make his point known. He was a realist, a pragmatist, and a stoic. He was a man of common-sense, a Christian man that loved his wife and his family. He did not suffer fools.

He was not perfect. I am only aware of one time that he may have entertained even the idea of a real transgression and he quickly corrected that path. He was human after all but in my observation better than most humans.

Like many men of his day he sensed that something was coming – he said it often to me, that things really were getting worse, little by little. It is hard for a man of my generation not to look backward and see this to be true (although many cannot, do not, and will not see it). It was more revealing for men of my father’s generation to see it. After all, they lived through a period of great achievements. Why should they sense the impending demise? Yet many of them did.

I recall when I was in second grade, we attended a church that voted on pastors and often could call a vote quickly and oust a man. My father was a deacon in the church, a small group had called and visited with him for a few weeks to talk about things in a serious way that I did not understand. I only knew he told them to essentially calm down. That was until a church meeting not long after. Something had changed, my father spoke to the congregation. I remember him pointing angrily at the pastor on the podium and saying that the man had lied. That church failed to vote the pastor out that day, we left that church after the meeting and never returned. Some years later that pastor went to jail for some pretty terrible things. That church suffered through several more charlatans and eventually went bankrupt and sold their building.

My father never fully trusted preachers after that. He would interview them before we visited churches. Later in life, he settled on a pastor friend he knew as a child. He knew what a rough lad the fellow had been and how much he had transformed.

Beyond preachers, he did not trust politicians, the government, or the media much either. He was wary of university professors. In sum, he had identified every institution and profession that would fall to absurd ideology and betray the notion of American exceptionalism. He was brilliant in his common-sense observations. (You can add to that list land developers, those people that buy up beautiful farms and convert them to dreary subdivisions – he loathed those parasites.)

In the 1980s when evangelical Christianity was facing one of its apostasy moments (events that lead to all the subsequent errors) many of his friends fell in with television preachers. Some bought vacation spots at places such as Jim and Tammy’s PTL in Charlotte. He never thought much of television preachers with slick words and slicker suits. To him, if you could not know the man preaching personally and judge his whole life, he had little business telling you about the spiritual.

Many of their friends watched anything and everything the local ‘Christian’ television station would display. I recall him saying that not everything called ‘Christian’ was. He was pretty open-minded about the books I read but scrutinized books by ‘religious’ authors, he did well to do that – just because something is in a book does not make it correct. All the ‘greatest’ bad ideas in the world are in a book someplace; I learned that later in life. But he was not small in his conception of God, nor was he close-minded to the mysteries of the Divine that we cannot know. His theology was simple and complex. He was my C.S. Lewis before I discovered Lewis.

At home, he made up work for me to do, and then fussed at me for breaking the plow, tractor, or mower. He also provided me with motorcycles, dogs, a pool, and everything else I needed to entertain myself.

He was incredibly profound and surprisingly open-minded in ways it took me years to understand. Small things he said to me, about the world, the universe, and theology took me years to grasp. He was not a man that explained a lot. His way of explaining was that you ought to get an idea and then to laugh at your folly for not and move on. It was a pretty effective teaching technique, it forced me often to go ask him what he meant, only to receive a snippet of more information. And the cycle continued.

In late 1992 I was at a decision point that would determine my life. Take one of the jobs locally that were on the table that would set me on a trajectory or head off to the Army. My father had always been accepting and supportive of me being in the National Guard, but leaving for the Army – that was different. He thought it a very bad idea. On a fundamental level, he was correct, he foresaw things I could not.

An acquaintance of mine, an older gentleman that spent his life in academia and taught at several major universities told me recently, “if I had known how important it is for sons to be near their paternal grandfather, I would likely have chosen a different profession”. My father had a brother that spent a career in the Air Force, he and his family left and never really returned. I think my father knew all of these things when he was sad about my career choice. Raising a son to be part of the traditions of manhood within a family requires the help of other manly figures in the family. A man’s father is an important part of raising sons to carry on the traditions and culture of the family.

Later in life, as he became ill with ALS, and my little family could only fly in occasionally on leave, my father became quieter. I suspect there was some sadness there. My decisions had robbed him of something he was entitled to – he had provided me a good life and great opportunities, the least I could have done was live closer to allow him time to be a granddad. I regret all of that in many ways, it makes me a bit sad. I did what I thought I was created to do in life, but decisions have consequences.

I told my cousin recently, when the last of my father’s brothers died, ‘when a man loses his father, life gets too real, and it is perhaps one of the hardest things to face.’ When your father dies you are alone in the world – there is nobody to come save you. Growing up, and as a man even, I always knew that if anything in life got too tough, my father would be there, at my side, fighting whatever was in front of us. That sense of security fades when one’s own father passes.

My father and many of his generation saw the turmoil in our world coming – they knew of Marxists at home and abroad. He was in that in-between generation. Just a bit too young for Korea and too old for Vietnam. After serving in the Marines he wore a flat-top, rode a Triumph motorcycle, and sported a leather jacket until he met my mother and then spent some time at Bob Jones University. Later, he scowled at and scorned the Boomer hippies – with good reason, their ideas and ideology were corrupt and wrong. He could smell a never-do-well ideologue a mile away.

He did not come from privilege; he grew up with seven siblings in a three-room house. He worked hard for what he achieved and acquired in life. He would not give two seconds credence to some girly-man standing up in front of a church claiming that ‘hard work is not enough’ to solve almost all of life's problems (that plus the Word). He would feel that way for many reasons, the least of which the entire concept is rather unbiblical and contrary to common-sense.

If he were alive today, he would show love and kindness to those confused by the lies many are telling in the world – for a brief time. If they failed to hear, he would turn from them in scorn and rebuke. That is biblical kids, as the Ramen guy so famously said on Tik-Tok recently, you just have to look it up (1Timothy 5:20). Just as he rebuked and scorned false teachers in the church in his life, he would do so now.

It is a blessing of sorts he does not have to live now, to see entire institutions fall and so many lemmings fall with them, led like rats by charlatan pied pipers. He lived a good and honest life. He was kind, stalwart, and just in his dealings with others and always lived according to principles that were tried and true. He never followed the crowd or cared much for what everyone else was doing. He was a man, a real, honest to God, man – there are so few of those around anymore. I was lucky to know him. He was my mentor, guide, and ultimately, my friend.

If I were older, if my strength had begun to fail, if there were still not people on this earth that I a have a duty to protect, if I did not hear the clarion call of noblesse oblige to stand on truth – I might wish my time in this world was at an end also. Yet there is duty to do still and battles to be fought and monsters driven from the door. ‘Duty is the sublimest word in the language’ after all.

My father had a good life, he worked hard and stood for truth even in the face of the crowd. We have but only our duty in this life and he did his. For me and those that choose to follow him and men like him, we will do the same. Protect our families, stand for truth, scorn those that lie or believe liars, and face down the growing sentiment of evil and hate that spreads through the land.

So Long and Thanks for All the Fish

I mentioned in a recent piece that over the last few weeks I have gleaned much of my information not from the major news organizations, nor my headline updates on my phone and not even from the various news aggregator sites but rather from Twitter. So much has been occurring, in so many places, it seems that even the major news outlets cannot be everywhere at once and show everything – even if they each did not have their own particular bias and worldview that might prevent them from showing raw, unadulterated truth.

Twitter has provided me access to various live streams from events as they occur. You see and hear the voices of people at the events. I also track several folks that practice open-source intelligence (OSINT). Some of these have been on the scene at various events with their own drones and folks on the ground. Sometimes there are numerous live streams and videos of the same event, from different perspectives. When I see something particularly interesting, I always flip through the various news channels to see what they are covering. Often, they are not there and not showing what is happening; this is true of all seven major outlets that I monitor.

When a particularly disturbing or telling event occurs, I capture that on another screen and go back and look and listen over the next twenty-four hours to see if anyone covers it, and if so how and from what perspective. I have the luxury of taking the time to do this. My ‘work’ at this point is something I control. I am fortunate enough to have multiple screens and numerous feeds active at the same time in my office; it is configured much like a mini- command center. Many Americans neither have the time, nor the inclination to see all of these events in their totality. I can and do, thus, I wanted to share.

All of that is what it is – I do not have much more to observe relative to that at this point other than with the narratives being spun on the major media outlets and so many Americans being unable or unwilling to engage in truth-seeking (combined with other institutions they trust lying to them), the West is Lost.

Let me be clear – I have nothing to gain and a little bit to lose from making that statement about our situation. I am not Rod Dreher trying to drum up panic to sell a new book. Every book I have written was intended to stop this; those books are worthless now. I am convinced that this will manifest in such a way that everyone is aware it is going on by 2022. I believe we will spend most of the next decade in chaos and crisis. If my assessment is wrong and 2022 rolls around and the world looks like it did in 2019, some people will remember me as the fool that said all of this. If on the other hand, I am right, nobody will have the time to pat me on the back. When everyone realizes what is happening because it has gotten worse they will be too terrified to find me and say I was right. I do not want to be right, I do not need vindication, there is some risk in saying how I see this play out. I say this because there is some small chance we can stop it, and if not there is the chance that somebody will heed my words and prepare to weather it.

Other recent random observations:

First, an item that will anger some people and amuse others. “Q” or ‘QAnnon’ was and is a hoax. I hinted at this last year, but I had no proof. Proof came last week (although Q still drops and people still buy into it). Like any good hoax, Q had some facts rights, and undoubtedly the effort hit on some of the right cylinders – hoaxes do not work unless they have some truth in them. There is no plan to trust, there will be no sweeping arrests and no military tribunals. I have tried as best I could to dissuade folks from buying into this, but I did it gently; people really wanted to believe. Nobody is coming to save us, Trump is not playing 4d chess and Clinton and company are not at home shaking when the pizza guy arrives thinking it might be ‘the big raid’. Nothing will come of any of that but pointless ‘hearings’. Washington simply does not work the way Q portrayed it. I do not doubt there is a lot of ‘there there’ but it will never come to the surface. If this angers you, I understand, but don’t focus that on me. I am just telling you the truth.

As I have been monitoring Twitter, I have sometimes been inclined to engage. Honestly, people are absolute trash behind their keyboards. Twitter allows 149 characters for a tweet. Most of the issues we face are complex and cannot be reduced to such. People will troll and attack, assume, presume, and jump to all sorts of assumptions and conclusions without ever seeking to actually understand what one says. If this is our public square – God help us.

I do not need to observe this so closely any longer – the trajectory is clear.

I have tried to engage with people on Facebook with people that know me or know of me. I do not post memes, I really do not say anything radical. I am simply trying to start a real dialogue. About a hundred people ‘unfriended me’, 90 new folks joined me and I suspect (based upon engagement numbers) about 98% of those that remained ‘friends’ simply muted me. I am seldom inclined toward emotions, so on that level – I do not care. On the level of civic duty and reasonable human behavior, this perplexes me. People are strange and many of them are going to be shocked by their future.

So long and thanks for all the fish…

I read today on a local group that essentially ‘everybody is muting everybody’ on their FB feed so perhaps my observations above have little to do with me and a lot to do with people just not wanting the issues in front of them. I mention the numbers, only as an observation. The “So long, and thanks for the Fish” has a double meaning, Google it. I did not mean it as an insult to anyone.

Also —I did not know, not fully, that preachers exercise ‘professional courtesy’ toward one another. Yes, I know a Christian is supposed to be wary of calling out someone else that professes Christ – but when they are clearly on the wrong side and preaching untruths it seems to me Paul would not have spoken in a roundabout way. Some of the pastors I follow and engage with have observed the flaws in modern evangelicalism and many of the churches therein. I hear these men speak out about what is wrong – just up to the point of dropping the hammer. The time has already come to separate the wheat from the chaff and speak the hard truth. Some do, others need to do it more forcefully and directly. No more talking about these nebulous ‘progressive social gospel churches’ in a vacuum. There are Christians in those churches that need to hear the unabashed truth. Bad preachers and churches are bad and they are helping destroy America.

I thought the other day of the protection we all enjoy as part of God’s general grace and Providential protection. It is his restraining hand that that has allowed us to come so far, it is his protection that keeps society from turning into rape gangs and murder squads. Watching the raw feed of events over the last few weeks has reminded me of that and how dreadful our world would be without his common Grace.

And maybe that is the point. We have been protected by Divine grace for a long time, yet we have become as sinful as Sodom and Gomorrah; heresy, error, abominations, false teachers, hate, murder… Perhaps it is time that we fall, perhaps in twenty years missionaries from Africa will evangelize my grandchildren or their children. Honestly, how long did we think we could continue a freak parade and infanticide without ramifications?

Some perhaps have taken my ‘dire’ warnings of impending doom and gloom as the crazed rantings of an unhinged 50something man and assume I must be frantic, depressed, or worried about the events I see unfolding. The latter part is certainly untrue – this all saddens me, but it does not depress me nor does it even worry me. To those that perhaps believe I chose 2020 to join the doom and gloom bandwagon, I would merely point out that I have said often and for a long time, since the late 1990s, that this was coming. I did not know when, nor the exact shape, but it has never been difficult to compare the events of history with the published plans of the Marxists and radicals. Many still doubt what comes next, but that is their own peril.

I tried to make some YouTube videos. I basically suck at speaking. I think ahead of myself, leave out entire sentences in my train of thought, I muddle words. Speaking is not my thing. I thought somebody might make use of some of my words, so I tried, it was enjoyable and I don’t put a lot of stock in what people think of me, I don’t really take myself that seriously.  

Back when Coronavirus began I told folks on a video that what we were doing was so strange that it was dangerous and that when people are lied to, controlled, and scared they become dangerous. I suggested that people stop taking on debt and spending stupid money and maybe plant a garden – I was ‘crazy’ back then, not so much now.  

I write now mostly just to get my ideas out of my head. The wife does not want to (or need to hear negativity), my dog Cooper is a good listener but he is so easily distracted and the VFW has not opened back up yet…what to do. The things we face have reasons, and those reasons are evil and laziness. We let this happen and many are still too stupid or willfully ignorant to understand the true nature of things now. What can you do?…There is not much more to say.

All I know as truth related to all this is…

What We Learned at Our House During the Lockdown

It seems that COVID-19 has ‘come and gone’, at least insofar as it was a threat we did not understand the nature of. We understand essentially what it is and what it is not now. We understand more about our world, ourselves and those around us also.  Here is a baker’s dozen of what we learned at my house.

  1. Bri and I really like one another. We have enjoyed our time together - never bored, always busy, doing new things, working together, and finding space.
  2. We picked the right house. When we walked into this place with the realtor a few years ago it screamed ‘practical and functional’ to me. It has proven to be true as we have been here now for a month and a half.
  3. Defining the Circle – we have gained a better understanding of the people we ought to pour our love, attention and resources into going forward. People that could not rally ‘round the cause and do the right thing in this little bump in the road are folks I cannot save.
  4. We were prepared. We strive to live within our means and to have the resources to weather a medium crisis. This has demonstrated that we did many of the right things long before this.
  5. We missed some small stuff. I have a growing list of small items that should have been in the ‘ready room’, nit-noid stuff one simply does not think about until you need it. This little exercise has helped illuminate those items. (I will at some point write a post about what one ought to have on hand for a medium crisis).
  6. A Boxer, that has not been able to see his girlfriend for a few weeks, senses that I might be more vigilant (thus he is also), and that knew from the start that cats were the ultimate spreaders of Coranavius is an interesting creature to be locked away with – never a dull moment from the minute he wakes up until he goes to sleep at night.
  7. Bri is able to work more effectively, efficiently and happily at home. She is so much happier not dealing with all the girl drama in her office. She has a nice workspace here, plenty of light, birds it is quiet and drama-free. I have found I can manage my contracts without going out nearly as much as I did before, much of that was self-induced. Working at home is great!
  8. Twitter and Facebook is such a waste. It is filled with ninnies, fools, communists, fascists and jerks it seems.
  9. Amazon is great – until it is not…see #5 above. Don’t wait next time.
  10. The sky is beautiful, the quiet is wonderful – with fewer cars and traffic running around, the birds seem more active, all the clutter of modern life so much less intrusive. It would be nice if we could just slow the world down a little bit on the regular.
  11. There is, apparently, a drug dealer a couple of streets behind us. He is out with his loud car every hour. I have added him to my high-value target list (HVT), if things get primal it is game on and a bad time for him.
  12. Some of the groups and organizations we were members of have proven useful, others not so much.
  13. There are important things and things that are not. Going forward we will redefine our circle to include just people that want to be in it. We will spend money differently, look at the world differently and perhaps pull back from some activities and groups and sustain some of the activities we have found so enjoyable.

Three Bonus Things

  1. Gardening is great!
  2. God is good, even when we do not fully understand everything.
  3. However, as I told someone recently, God will not send a man down from Paris Mountain with instructions chiseled on rocks to tell you the right thing to do. He gave us common-sense and a brain. He expects us to act.

Coronavirus may not be what the fearmongers said, not nearly as bad as all that – but the financial mess we have created, that will not go away soon. I do not want to make light of all this, we are all still surrounded by foolish people that do not live within their means, cannot bear a real crisis and would become very dangerous if things get much worse.

We all ought to take a moment to take stock of what we have learned thus far.

Ten Useful Things

I was thinking today of some random things from my past that we might individually be able to apply to our current situation. Presented here to apply to multiple meanings. Some of this can have philosophical meaning as well as practical application.

  1. Remember, “If you play stupid games you win stupid prizes”.
  2. When you approach the ‘narrow-angle’ the engagement has begun.
  3. Come off your gun, breathe, listen and think. Perform an orientation check – do you really want to do this? if so…
  4. Slice the danger area into manageable parts.
  5. Make a hasty plan, fall back on your training (what you know).
  6. Decisively engage and press the initiative, no half measures – attack the corners.
  7. Double-tap. One is none.
  8. Avoid tunnel-vision.
  9. Head on a swivel, never assume anything.
  10. Stay balanced – orient yourself toward your threat.

Make of that what you will – it could work for a board meeting (if you use some terms as metaphors) or clearing a room and a lot of things in between.